S...L...O...W... Start!

Have you ever awakened one morning, and realized that WAYYYY too much time has gone by, and many of your goals that were scheduled to have been completed have not even been started?? That has been happening to me lately!
I also feel as if my day planner is my worst enemy. Actually, it's more like a nag who follows me around constantly and taunts me about things that I said I was going to complete, but never followed through! As I turn the pages of my day planner, I see things such as, "lose 20 pounds by now!" Then, I turn the pages backward and see that my diet was suppose to have begun 2 months prior, and I actually could have realized those goals if I had stuck with it! How frustrating!

I am at one of these cross-roads with school as well. In a down market, my real estate business has drastically picked up (go figure!), and I find myself taking constant phone calls and emails during the entire school day, and eventually sitting in amazement as I tuck my children into bed, wondering "where did the day go??? How am I ever going to catch up???" It is easy to become terrified about these sorts of things. YOU are responsible for your child's education as a homeschooler! YOU could make or break their future! YOU could be doing them a huge disservice instead of enhancing their academic aptitude!

And, all these things are true! But, His Grace is sufficient for me. And I know that one day, I will look back and say, "Wow- that was not even anything to worry about!" I know that this too shall pass, and we will be ahead again in no time.

Isn't it amazing how God can make time stand still for us? Sometimes that is not such a great thing- like the times that we are sad, or scared, or feeling guilty... and we just want the time to fly by so we can move on. But I've noticed that sometimes God seems to say, "let's sit and think about this for a minute, just to be sure we won't end up here again..."

So while I could continue to unproductively worry and fret over losing a couple of weeks of schooling, I am instead going to take some time to sit back, and take My God in as I ask for his help in achieving my homeschool goals.